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Sunday, March 15, 2015

Being #SelfProud

I know it has been a while and in the weight department, I really have not much to report!

I am training a lot these days and thoroughly enjoying it, but for the last six weeks that has been the focus and the food has not been 100% so while I have lost lots of centimetres off the body, not a lot of kilograms have gone with it.

Why the sudden interest in training?!? Well beside the fact that I signed up for a Tough Mudder event (date has finally been finalised for September 13) I have also signed up for Raw Challenge (last weekend), Miss Muddy (next weekend), Tough Bloke/Chick (in Sydney 27 June), True Grit (25 July), Winter Warrior (in Melbourne & in the SNOW!!!! 08 August) and Stampede (05 September)!!!!

Nothing like jumping in :o) & these are just the ones that I have signed up for so far, I am also being TALKED into doing the Brisbane Spartan on May 16 (it will be a rookie round if I do it – not ready for all those burpees yet and I also want the rookie medal :p) and another Raw Challenge in October and a night time True Grit event in December. We will see how I go this year…

So the first race of the year was last weekend…

Saturday 07 March 2015: Raw Challenge

It was great!!!

I stayed over at a friend’s place Friday night and we were out of the house by 6am; first to pick up her dad who was in an earlier wave time to us and headed off to the Gold Coast. Took us about 1 1/2 hours to get down there (which is better than the 3 hours it would have taken from my place). Pull up into a field for a parking lot and mad our way to the small tent city that was Raw Challenge Gold Coast.

One of the reasons we got there so early was that my friend is involved with a new obstacles website and was meeting up with the "crazies" from there. They are a great bunch of people & they truly are "crazy" over obstacle races LOL. I have to admit I am fast in joining in their craziness over these event :o)

This is us in the middle of the race. The one dressed as the Hulk is one of the co-founders of the AusOCRS website and friend from work is the one next to me in the back.

Four of the guys in this photo actually ran in the 8:30 elite wave and then came around again with us to help out (I needed it LOL) 

Can I just say wow on the elite round, that wave is the first one out and is reserved for serious racers and athletes in the OCR circuit! They run for points on a leader board that goes for the whole year and they have championships and such. The winner for this event did the course in 26 minutes!! In comparison I was able to get through it in about 2 1/2 hours :p when we saw the first wave head towards the finish line we thought there must have been an earlier wave that we missed, but no, they were just that fast!!! 

The thing I found out on the day is that I am a lot stronger than I thought and that I still have a long way to go before I am anywhere near ready for Tough Mudder in September!!! 

I really wasn't able to do any of the climbing obstacles without help and lots of it! And anything over 2 meters was too high for me to really do at all. I almost freaked out on the tyre wall, mainly because I was petrified my arms wouldn't hold me up and I couldn't get my legs up high enough to get over the wall. So I got up one side up then had to go back down because I just could not get over it even with three guys surrounding me to help. There were another three high climbing obstacles after that one that I didn't do. As I was already fatigued and I really did not think my arms would support me if I slipped. 

But I am good with that, as this was the first race in my calendar I knew there was going to be ones I couldn't do and it would highlight what I need to work on with my trainer. And I have already discussed it with her so that we can build on my training. 

Other than the climbing obstacles (which half of them were) the rest of the course was great, lots of mud, water and fun. Although the dam swim was cooling, it didn't smell nice!!

I have to admit I am very proud of myself (or as Hulk has labelled it: #selfproud) and I really can't wait for the next one which is next week!!!

Monday, August 25, 2014

Persistence

Persistence is the key to any successful journey and is something I am lacking in!

Trying to get it takes time, and through that time it can be hard to see the results, which altimately stops me! Times are tough when the one thing you need to do to get to the goal is the one thing you lack!

So I need to stop looking so far ahead!

I can not focus on the fact that I have 50+kilograms (110 + pounds) to lose!

I have to focus on 5 kilograms - I need to get rid of 5 kilograms (11 pounds)!

Small attainable goals, that are within reach!

Now is May seem like simple stuff, but for what ever reasons, I have lost this insight over time and am now just rediscovering it!

Same goes for jumping in and signing up for next year's ToughMudder! That seems like an unabtainable goal at this point, but I can't focus directly on that yet. So I have a Holt Bolt obsticale course race in five weeks:
The Holt Bolt is a 5-6 km event and while it is hard, it is not the 20km event that ToughMudder is, so a great starting point!

I went to the gym this morning and it went well! I have a plan in place for the whole week:

Monday - 20 min cardio & upper body strength
Tuesday - 20 min cardio & lower body strength
Wednesday - 50-60 min cardio
Thursday - rest
Friday - 20 min cardio & upper body strength
Saturday - 20 min cardio & lower body strength
Sunday - active rest (scheduled hike with a friend)

Now I know it is full on, but I am taking it easy, and I know me!! If I don't go all the time, I don't go at all!

I have put Thursday as a rest day, because if I'm going to have a late night it is usually Wednesday night, as a friend and I usually go to Trivia that night after work :)

Persistence is key, and I have to take it one day at a time to get to my goal of being persistant and achieving my small, measurable & achievable weightloss goals!

Monday, August 18, 2014

Once apon a time....

Once apon a time there was a girl who throught she understood what it meant to have weight loss surgery. She thought she was ready. She thought she had done all her research and knew what she was getting into. She thought she was ready to make the required changes needed in order to succeed in this life changing journey.

I was wrong!!!

Throughout my time so far with my band I have always thought the hardest part of the journey was when you don't have any restriction so you can eat more than you should.

Not so, the hardest part is when you have great restriction and yet you still don't loss weight! Not because there is something wrong with it, but because you make the wrong decisions on what to eat. To be honest that should say because "I" make the wrong decisions!

It is yet another Monday and once again I am trying to restart my action plan. The biggest problem I have at the moment is that exercise is starting to hurt again!

I had gotten to the point where I enjoyed exercise and loved the fact that I was getting stronger and leaner, but over the last six months, my brain has refused to push enough so that I actually get of the couch and the horrid rocking shuffle is returning to my walk!
I hate the way I am feeling, looking and thinking right now and I know that this is something I need to get past before I will be able to successfully get on with my weight loss journey. But finding a decent doctor to talk to is difficult! My regular GP left the surgery I was going to with little warning and her new practise in nowhere near me so I can't get to see her anymore and I am not impressed with the replacement do tors they have at the practice.

The worst thing about this is that I was just finishing sorting out the medical problems with her and we were then going to look into my head, when she moved!

So starting that all over again is just another pain I don't want to deal with.

I miss writting... I would get a lot of my thoughts out with paper and pen, but finding the time and privacy to do that is difficult. I used to do a lot of that at work, either in down time or during my breaks, however my office has gone paper free because we take credit card details over the phone. While I completely understand the reasoning behind it, I hate, hate, hate the fact that I can no longer doodle at my desk. If the computer is taking 10 minutes to process, I just have to sit there and wait!

Because we are no longer to eat at our desk the staff room is always busy, so there is no ME TIME anymore there! And trying to do something privately in the staff room is impossible. So that is a major stress release that is no longer available to me!

So all this babbling has got me to the point of where I am now:
My plan?
Yep, don't even know when it will be, I just know that I will be doing it and to get through it I will have to toughen up and get to the gym!

My name is Sam and yes I am insane :p

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Learning Process

It seems that I have to learn my band all over again!

Having had little to no restriction for so long, relearning the small portions and what doesn't work is kind of weird! Weird that I have to learn it again, because it seems as though I should never forget that lesson.

It should be second nature by now, but it isn't. I have been ignoring the fact that I have a band for the last six months, hence why I am where I am!

To make matters even more interesting I am actually on holidays at the moment and as I type and travelling through the night on The Ghan. An iconic train trip from Darwin to Adelaide over three days.

Only problem is the very limited internet access while travelling. I only get bars on both my phone and iPad when we stop in a town. Next stop is Alice Springs at 9am!

So far on this trip I have embraced the small bits and slowly eating meals and leaving plenty on my plate. It is good to have the yummy meals still, and know that they are not going to completely unravel me as I can only eat a small part of them. And I have followed the golden rule of protein first!

So here it is, just a quick update to say I am still here and still working my band the way I should! With it, and not trying to get around it :)

 

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Honesty

Honesty can be brutal, but it needs to be done!

My current weight is 133.5kg or 294.3lb

While this is still down 18.4kg from my highest weight it is UP over 20kg from my lowest!

There are extenuating circumstances that have caused some of this weight gain - over the last six months my thyroid was attacked by my immune system and only now is it back to regular working order with the assistance of medication.

But that is only a reason as to why I was continually tired, not an excuse to continuely eat during that time.

And the fact that I didn't get back to my surgeon for a fill after I went to China last October is another excuse that I can not use. I have had very little restriction, so of course I have been eating more!

That doesn't excuse the fact that I have been eating junk, that is no ether helped in my journey nor has it helped my state of mind during the past few months while I have been gaining this weight!

So not only have I been hiding from the fact that I was gaining weight but I was also hiding from the fact that my choices haven't been good for the most part. You know how a healthy diet generally goes on the 80/20 rule wher it is being good 80% of the time and relaxing on it for the other 20? Well for me it has been the other way around mostly only making good choices 20% of the time...

But while I am still a little tired, I have gotten to the stage were I can't let it affect me so much anymore! I went back to my surgeon, I have gotten a fill and I am already feeling the restriction is back! I stuck to soft food today and I will do so again tomorrow. Two reason; 1 is that I need to learn to cut my food portions down again as they were getting up to near normal sizes again before today and if I over eat with some food, it isn't as painful if it was hard protein, and 2 I have always tended to feel very tight straight after a fill and don't want to agrivate my stomach!

So I am getting my head back in the game and being honest with myself for once! I will keep you posted...

Ps I have missed blogging :/

 

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

What is so different about the weekend?

Time and time again I have to wonder why I do not follow through on the weekends? And I think I may have come up with a few reasons.....

  • Routine

I have none on the weekend, whether I am working or not, there is no routine to my Saturday or Sunday! And that just makes it difficult to stick to a routine.

The only regular thing about my weekend is the planned long Sunday walks I do with a friend, but that can easily be cancelled if either of us is not feeling well or if either of us have to work in the morning. And if I don't go for the walk, I rarely make it to the gym instead.

  • Relaxation

 

When I am not at work, I automatically fall into a relaxed mode where I have no motivation or will power to get up and do something, at least nothing that doesn't involve friends and fun.

 

  • Foods

There is no food structure or plans on the weekend, I can have exactly the same stuff at home as what is at work and it doesn't matter, I will just eat what ever and rarely do I stick to a game plan to keep within a calorie range.

The brain really shuts down when it comes to food on the weekend, usually because I am socialising and feel so awkward around other people at times that I eat to cover the fact I have nothing to contribute to the conversation. The fact may be that I do, but it is all about your own prospective on any situation that we worry about, isn't it?

  • Time

Main problem, and I think the route of everything else is that there is so much extra time on the weekend. You get so used to rushing, fitting stuff in and keeping on track that the extra time just ruins me! And while I still don't do so well on the weekends that I work, I do a lot better than other weekends when I don't have work on top of everything else.

So who knew that having so much time on your hands could be a bad thing for staying on track? I would have thought it made it easier as there was time to plan ahead, time to get to the gym,time to shop smart! But for me that time just makes everything available to do later and later then turns into, "I didn't do that this week". Procrastination, my name is Sam ;p

So the problem lies in how to fix this flaw in me so that I no longer waste and ruin my weekends and stay on track for the great weigh in on Monday's?

I have come to the realisation that besides all my list making and plan writing I am really no good at making a plan that works for me! So that is what I am going to work on, making better plans so hopefully I can work smarter and not harder! (Side note, they have been drumming that into us at work for months...it must be sinking in finally ;p)

Good news is that I will be working this weekend, so it should help in getting a better than most weekend off to an even better start! I shall keep you posted on how I go ;)

P.S. I didn't weigh in this week, I thought it better to not disappoint myself this week cause I have been eating too much crap that I just know it wouldn't have been any good & I can only deal with so much disappointment at the moment :/

Enjoy your week :o)

 

Monday, September 30, 2013

The scale and other scary items in my life

This morning I weighed I at 112.5kg (approx. 248 lb). It has been a while since I stood on a scale and while I have been exercising hard in that time; my food choices have let me down; because this number is up!

So it may be Monday (the worst day to restart something) and it may be only 4 weeks until I jet off to China for 11 days (when I will be in true holiday mode); but I can not let any of this stand in my way of eating right; otherwise; what the hell am I doing?

Today I brought my lunch to work and there will be no more sugary flavoured coffees, I can not believe how much sugar is in the coffee shop Chai Lattes; my tea mix doesn’t have any calories listed on it and the ingredients are tea and spices, so I mistakenly thought that the shop versions would be similar; I was wrong; there’s seems to be based on sugar with some spices added!! So I shall just have to have the plain coffee again and left the yummy chia for home! And work on getting some sugar free flavours shipped over from the USA, because you can only readily get sugar-free vanilla here and I am not a real big fan of that one!

I have wondered about my lack of blogging and I have to admit it is the usual cause for my absence.....failing to loose weight! But it is silly to do that because I love reading of people's struggles as well as the continued successes! Firstly, it highlights issues I am usually having and offers alternative ideas on how to deal with them, and secondly, it is so great to see that person work through them and continue the journey. Prehaps if I had continued to blog more regularly I would have worked through the last platuea of two and half years a bot quicker!

So I am going to keep blogging, even if it does get a bit boring with just food updates and exercise updates! It is mostly for me and that is what I have to remember! I need to do whatever will work for me.

Now onto something equally depressing, work! Ireally wish I was rich and didn't have to work to pay off my morgage! Not liking it at all at the moment! Can I just say that new programs that don't do what was promised and take ten time more time, effort and people to complete a task SUCKS!!! But that is all I will say on the matter as I would likely to be fired if I said what I really thought. They keep assuring us it well get better, but at the moment I just can't see it and am just a little over being constantly emotionally and mentally exhausted each day!

I am trying to focus on the good things in my life, the upcoming trip to China that I am very excited about and all the great workouts I am enjoying. By focusing on them I am less likely to give in to the cravings for crap food that I have when under emotional stress!!!

and on that note I am off for today, I think I have rambled enough. Step by step I will get there :o)

Monday, September 9, 2013

Been a while....

Yes I have been away for quite a while.

For the most part, nothing has changed, and at the same time alot has changed!

Weight is still around the same, but I am feeling so much better, about myself and my life and my journey.

I am exercising regularly... for how long? Well I am aiming for life, anything short of that I do not want to accept!
This was this mornings workout session.

And I have been getting to the gym Monday to Friday, but I have not been as good on the weekends.

I tend to do up a snapshot like this and put it on instgr@m each day so that I try to stay accountable and motivated.

I do love how I feel after a great session and how much I can improve from week to week. This is only the third time I had done the above leg session and the difference that I felt even from last week is amazing. My dream has been to become active and to have exercise as a part of my daily life, I actually feel as though I am getting there.

Mentally, I think you can tell I am in a better place, I finally went to my doctor and talked about my problems.

Depression and anxiety are not fun to live with, but getting help is the hardest step ever. Once you take it, it is also the best step you can ever take. What made it even harder was that I had been there before and had stopped taking medication. I found it so hard to go back to the doctor and tell her that I needed to go back onto it!

Of cource she completely understood and was wonderful about the whole thing, put my mind at rest about a lot of the anxiety I had been having and has me on a different type on anti-depressants from last time. so far they are working a lot better, but she is monitoring me and we are working through it.

So there are the two main thins that have previously held me back, with just food being the missing link!

It is better, but still not great. I am eating a lot of higher protein foods, but still have a lot of problems with snacking, especially when bored at work! And I can be very busy, but still bored!

I have actually applied for a different position at work, but that has been put on hold for a while due to a new system taking up all our time and a resuffle not being the best option at this stage in the game...blah, blah, blah...same story they always say. Hopefully I will actually get to learn a new role sooner rather than later there, as a change is what I really need.

Well I don't know if anyone still reads this, and that is okay, because this blog has always been more for me getting things down, then writting it for other people, but if you are reading, thanks!!! And I will be back a lot quicker this time :o)

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Continuing my Plan

The plan is going well, but a few points on it that I should clarify for you. I am not trying to do everything on my plan straight away. I know that would just set me up for failure.

Something I should have mentioned last week in my post is that the plan is the long term goal, that is what I want my lifestle to be. Accomplishing that will get me to goal and change my lifestyle so that it is for life change, not a diet to get me to the first stage.

At the moment I am concentrating on some of the smaller things, the rest; because that is very important and without it, makes everything else nearly impossible. The water, because we are about to get into winter here, and that is when I struggle with water, and the exercise; because that is the one I want in my life the most.

Exercise is what I want my life to be about. I love the thought of being active and while I may go on about it, I know I have to in order to keep reminding myself what I do want my life to be.

Having said this, the other aspects of my plan were never far from my mind this week, and I did find that I was mostly there with the rest of my plan. While I didn't track my food, I was making better chioces, proteins with veges for most meals, and not nearly as many 'treats' as I normally would have, that is not to say that I didn't have them, but I did limit them, to the point were even out with friends, I choose a bottle of water instead of a soft drink and chocolate. I didn't even feel any envy while she ate it either. I enjoyed my cold water and continued on with our outing.

Oh, and that outing? It was shopping for hiking clothes! There was a great Brisbane hiking store that was relocating and we were checking it out because we want to get into hiking.

The main reason for this is that we are trying to put together a trip to South America next year... yes, we want to do the Inca Trek! It is a big trek, we know this, and to do it, both of us have to loose weight and get fit, very fit. At the moment we can do an hours walk no problem...if there are not too many hills. That is a huge diference to the 42 km or 26 mile trek in high altitude and we know it.

This is why the plan is so important. I have to loose more weight so that I am capable to do the trek.

So there you go, I have said it out loud. I want to do the Inca Trail trek in August / September 2014. And I am not letting myself stop me!

And so tomorrow is the first of my weigh ins that I have done for a while. I know I am up stightly from the last time I logged, but I am okay with that, because I am never going to be there again.

Very simply put, I need to start loosing weight and I need to keep loosing for some time.
This is what I am aiming for, I am thinking that I have kept the goals reasonable, and the time frames of every four weeks is manageable. I just have to add my offical start weight tomorrow morning! I think it will be around 112kg / 247lb. But I will need to wait and see as I am trying to stay away from the scale a bit so that I don't stress too much.

I also have worked on my meal planning a bit to cover lunches, tuna, egg and salad looks the go for this week, just something quick, easy and tasty in what I was thinking. But I will also be starting to plan dinners as well, so that I have a plan ready to go and I can get the shopping sorted out and not have to worry about what to do each night. This will also assist with budgeting so that I can actually pay for this big trip :p

Obviously, time will tell on how this goes, but if I don't try, then I won't get there. And this is what I have to keep me going...
Source

I will keep you updated, thanks for so much of your comments. I love them all!!!

Monday, April 8, 2013

Working on it

After my last post I have been doing a lot of thinking and I have come up with a plan of attack...

My Plan

Exercise - 30 minutes every day
Morning is best, I can get in the thirty minutes in the morning before work!

I need to just get up at 5:00am and go to the gym instead of reading or fiddling with games for an hour and a half!

If I do miss a session my back up plan is to either walk to the station if it is not raining or at the very least stretching and cardio at home - I have enough magazines to get a thirty minute workout plan going!!!

Sundays will still remain the day or the big walks with my friend from work.

RDO - besides gym session, also have a swimming session, search for a swimming workout so that you have something to work towards when you go!

Rest - need at least 7 hours very night

This means in bed asleep by 10pm and no staying up all night reading or playing!

Water!!!
Two litres every day without fail - you know you feel better with it

Food - the biggest challenge so far
~ After workout I need a piece of cheese or small piece of fruit
~ Coffee and yoghurt for breakfast
~ Lunch to be protein and vege everyday - need to take this as the sushi is not a healthy option and I tend to want to eat more after it.
~ Dinner needs to be healthy protein and vege again

~ Snacks to be limited to fruit or cheese or protein but no more than 100 calories!

Treats
These are to be limited to once a week. And only one meal!

How to combat this...
~ Work morning teas - there is usually fruit or vege sticks, so eat those only, if there isn't that option don't eat any thing, you do not need it and you want to get to goal!
~ Weekend outings with family or friends - unless it is the one meal a week, stick to a healthy protein and salad or vege, but stay away from excessive carbs.

Alcohol
Also need to limit this to once a week and only to two glasses.

How this will work - you can still go out, but it you want to drink you have to eat healthy, if you want to eat a free meal, drink water or no calorie drinks, if it is an event that you want the free meal and drinks, remember that there is only one a week, so don't plan more events. And if there are times when you need more than one event a week you need to earn those extra calories and get them in before the event so that you don't just skip over them!

Over all I need to:
Stay under 1200 calories a day, this includes free meals!
Get at least 7 hours sleep
Exercise at least 30 minutes EVERYDAY
Drink water all day; every day
Treats are not treats if you have them all the time - once a week is plenty!!

All basic stuff, but basic is what I need, too complicated and I am doomed to fail before I start. I think the hardest part is the daily exercise - just getting started is the hardest.

Do you know what I love to image though?

I love imaging that exercise is a regular part of my life, that I get up for a run in the morning, that I look forward to competing in a mud run, I really want to do one of those!!!

And that is what I have to think about in the mornings when I just want to hit the snooze button! What I need to do is this....

Stop dreaming, Start doing!!!

If I stick to my guns, I those dreams have a chance of becoming true and that is something to aim for!

I will keep you posted on how I go! And thanks for the prompt Deirdre, I think I was scared to post again, because I didn't have anything new to report, your comment got me thinking that I had made progress, I just haven't put it in place, but today was a start on it. And thank you to everyone else that commented.

It goes to show how important comments and support shown by others is for all of us to succeed, so I think I will go and offer some support of my own.