For so long I was overeating so much that I don't think I every really knew what hungry felt like and so since the band I have been constantly fighting against my head hunger. I never took into account that I could actually be really hungry.
Don't get me wrong I am still battling the head hunger, but I have been thinking that some of the hunger pains and some of the meals I have been eating were because I was actually hungry.
Amazing... six month's ago I would never have know that sensation when I was not on a strict diet. And then I would have been moaning about it constantly.
Now, I don't even realise it and just think my head hunger I is again getting out of control.
It really is amazing how one comment can change your whole perspective on a situation.
To that end; I had an appointment with my surgeon today and I got another fill.
It was only a little fill of 0.5ml - but he doesn't want to over fill. I don't mind, as long as it helps me on my journey.
I really am of two minds on my fills.
First and foremost I want that great restriction that allows my to eat well, but not get stuck all the time.
On the other hand I really am petrified that I will become over filled and and won't be able to keep anything down. This probably the only real fear I have with my band, and it is really more of the unknown that scares me more than anything, so I can live with that for now.