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Sunday, October 31, 2010

Quiz and the Weekly Goals

Here is a quick quiz I found over at Lapband and Beyond, I am not sure where Margorie (the Silverhairedgoddess) found it, but I hope she doesn't mind me stealing it :) She is a new blogger and soon to be banded and I think would appreciate some extra support.

     My fathers childhood friend
     Yes - most of the time.
     Do dogs and cats count? No? Than no I don't.
     Definitely :)
     Guilty - and I wonder why people don't get me :)
     Yes - they grew back (who knew that could happen?)
     Crunchy Nut 
     Most of the time :P
     Cookies n Cream, Peppermint Choc Chip (couldn't separate these two)
      Their eyes

      I get snappy when I get tired
     Roast Lamb Fritter
     Aqua Marine
     My Sister
     Mountain hideaway
     Baseball - but we really don't get allot of it here in Australia
     Brown - with one thick streak of silver
     No - but I am thinking of trying them again

     Happy endings most definitely
     The Sorcerer's Apprentice
     Chocolate Fudge Brownie

Now for my weekly goals update and then off to see more blogs.
Food: Not so good: Weekly Cal: 9327 (average 1332 per day)
Water: After I started counting I did pretty well, 5/7
Exercise: 5/4 (I got an extra one in due to the twofer)
Cello: 3/5 (Still need to work on this one)

Friday, October 29, 2010

Hoilday Challenge and an Epiphany

Click to go to Challenge Superstar Kristen!!
Yes it coming up to another challenge. The Challenge superstar Kristen is organising it and the great challenge icon has been designed by the stylish Joey, I absolutely love this little design. Thanks ladies, it is great to be doing another challenge.

So I am hoping to do better in this one than in the last weight loss challenge I was in. Then it went for eight weeks and I lost just under 7 kilos (under 15 pounds) I know that was still a good result, but it could have been allot better. There were a few weeks were I did not do well and was quite slack. It was only because other weeks were I did really well that the end results weren't too bad. This new challenge is only six weeks long and I want a more consistent result this time.

My own personal weekly goals should help with this. This first week has been a little up and down with them so far, but I will persist with it as I think the structure has great potential to really help me get past were I am lately.

This brings me onto my Epiphany:

I have been wondering why I have not been feeling as excited as I should be about the fact that I have lost over 30 kilos in the last seven months, and I think I have worked it out.

You see the Feb 2010 photo, well that was the one that really opened my eyes and made me see what I had really become. Even though I had been thinking about the band and had done a lot of research. It was this photo that made me make the appointment and schedule the surgery.


Because of the photo from October - this is what I have always seen myself as.

This is the self image I have always had of myself. I knew I was fat, obese, gross; whatever you want to call it. But I never really truly saw myself. There is probably a few other photos of me at this size. I know there is a couple from the work Christmas party last year. But I don't have any copies of them and when they went around the office I managed to ignore them most of the time, if I did look at them I managed to ignore me in them and concentrate of the other people.

Self denial is a bad thing - that's all I'm saying.

The reason I don't think I have come very far yet is because in my head I am right were I was eight to ten months ago. I know I realised I really was allot bigger, but that fact didn't seem to make it all the way to the subconscious level it seems.

With the February photo; I have hidden it since the moment I saw it, but for some reason I could never delete it from the memory stick. It was the one that changed everything for me and for that I am grateful.

So there you go. I have been in denial for so long I really have no idea where I am at the moment.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

I did a twofer!!!!

For the first time in my entire life I did a twofer today (insert big grin here)

This morning I went to the gym and did 30 minutes on the treadmill as well weights for my arms and crunches (lots of crunches)

Then this afternoon, I went back to the gym and did a body attack class.

Main reason being is that I always feel as through I work harder in the classes and it had been a week since I had been able to get to one. Now believe me when I say this will not become a habit. I just know that I didn't work as hard as I could have this morning, and I sure I am going to be sore tomorrow. So we will need to see how that goes :)

In between these two gym sessions I was shopping :) Got some new tops (size 20) - nearly into the teens. i needed them as most of my clothes are still too big for me, so I have been getting a few things that actually fit. It is nice, but as I have never really been into shopping (why bother when you know nothing is going to fit) it is still a little hard for me to get excited over it. Plus I just keep thinking that I do not want to remain this size for too long and if I buy too many clothes at the size I am now, then I may be sub-consciously sabotaging myself so that I don't loss more weight.

And even as I type this I know it is stupid and irrational, but hey, I am working on it.

Today I also got my hair cut:

I am one of those people that never knows what they want done with their hair. So when I do manage to drag myself to a hairdresser, I tend to go all out :-) I think I like it. but it may take a few days for me to be sure.

I think I like the idea of the fringe, Have not had one since I was about 13 years old, this on is a longer fringe and is supposed to sweep to the side. So it is not the rigid fringe of my youth. The thing I like best about it is that I can't just put it up in a ponytail EVERY day. Down side to this is that I have to get used to the hair being down when I exercise. I got some head bands to keep it out of my face, but tonight it came off soon into the class, so I need to use some bobby pins to keep it on. Learning process, everything is always a learning process.

Now I need to give a quick 'Thanks so much' to Bonnie for your comment on my last post. I completely forgot about water. And this one I am going to be tough on myself. the aim is for at least 2 litres of water everyday. It is probably one of the things that I am behind on. And as for the work outs, you are probably right about them as well. So I will be changing that to 4 workouts a week and if there are any extra's throughout the week then that is all for the better.

Have a great Friday every one.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Weekly Goals - New Beginnings

First off, I want to say a big thank-you for all your great comments on my last post. It really makes me glad I finally got up the courage to post some actual pictures of me :)

Alright, time to set some weekly goals. I know I am doing well and all but the scale is deciding to be a bi-art-ch so it is time for some serious goals to keep me on track.

The weekly weigh in was this morning.
The scale showed 121.4kg  (267.7lb)
Down 100 grams.
For the second week in a row.
Only down 100 grams.

Yes I am a little upset that the scale is not rewarding me with all my hard work I have been putting in. I know it is nothing to worry about as I have been doing a far amount of exercise lately. But it is a little off putting. The only good thing I can say about it, is that it is a loss, no matter how small it is!!

I have been thinking about it and have a few realisations: I really need to up my protein, I know that, and thankfully there have been a few posts lately on different protein powders that people are using, so thanks everyone for that :0) I am going to try a few different types of protein powder, to see if I can find one I like.

The only other thing I really need to work on is less snacking. But that is always the case, so it is nothing new.

So to help me stay on track I will be trying out a few weekly goals.
Nothing drastic or over the top, just a few simple guidelines that I want to be able to follow through on. Something were I am not required to post about daily like the food log I was trying. As much as I may wish I was, I am not an every day blogger and I just bore myself when I try to be. Weekly goals will just be something I can add to the end of a post once a week. Here's hoping this will be more doable :0)

Food goals, to begin with; I am going to aim for a weekly calorie goal, so that at the end of the week I am consuming less than 8400 calories (that is 1200 a day), but I am going to mix it up so that I am not on the same every day. I have noticed that a few people do this and they are seeming to have success, so I am giving it a go. Once I get the hang of it, or when this gets to be too many, I will then be able to start reducing the weekly allowance.

Fitness goals are easier (until I have to actually do them, I'm sure). I want to log 5 workouts that are at least 40 minutes long with at least two of them containing a strength workout. I think this one is very doable, as I am already doing this know. But whether or not I can keep it up once I have posted it is another thing :0)

Goals for my music is also very similar. I want to log 5 practice sessions a week that are at least 30 minutes long. This is probably going to be the hardest one yet as I seem to have a lot of problems doing both cello practice and exercise on the same day.

So there they are. Please feel free to let me know if you think any of these are unreasonable, or not tough enough :0) They are adjustable and this is just a starting point.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

A Dinner Party

I was wearing these new pants that I recently bought, and paired it with this red top I have had for ages. And because I liked how I felt in the outfit I so I took the following photos.

I love this top. I always feel my version on skinny in it. And I have to admit that this outfit was the best I have felt in clothes for the longest time. This was on Sunday and I was going to a friends for a dinner party.

It was a great night and because she knew about the band she even gave me a doggy bag to take home. It was weird, because it was actually the first sit down dinner with friends since I have been banded. Usually dinner out has always been at a bar or a take away shop. Just something on our way out for the night and it really is amazing how easy it is to hide what you are not eating from friends and people who don't know about the band. Sunday night was different.

It was all a sit down and everyone served at the same time thing. My plate was served up the same as everyone else's, but when we were all finished with each course, my plate went back with more and more food on it.

She is doing a Margaret Fulton Challenge, based on the movie Julie and Julia, she is using one of Margaret Fulton's cookbooks and every two weeks she will be having a dinner party. Three courses of the recipes for 26 dinners. The last one will be on Margaret Fulton's birthday and will be the groups favourite dishes from the previous year of cooking.

I have put my name down for most of the dinners, with the exception of the oyster night (yucky). The only reason I did agree to it (besides the fact that I really enjoy getting out of the house and meeting up with some friends) is because she knows about the band and knew that I wouldn't be able to eat everything on my plate. I did get a few weird looks from some of the others at the party, a mix of work mates and other friends that she knows and there were only two people there that knew I have been banded.

Basically I ate really slowing and didn't eat a lot of anything.

The first course was a potato and leek soup, so that went down alright and was delicious. Than the main course was an individual beef wellington, I have never had a piece of beef that was soooooo tender. I had no problem with it, but even so I still only had a tiny portion of it (the left overs were just as tender the next night for dinner and did both me and my mum who had the left over soup with it). And then the dessert was a simple strawberry snow. A very light and fluffy strawberry whiped thing :) I couldn't eat a lot of it but it was yummy.

All in all I did eat a bit too much, but it was over a longer period of time than what I would normally eat.

But it was a great night and I have been extra good ever since. Hope you are all doing well. I have been reading, just have not had the time to comment as much as I would like.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Fat Childhood

There are posts flying around about our own childhood obesity and it brought back vivid memories of my childhood. And I thought I would put them down here.

I was not fat as a child. I was tall for my age and that really worked against me.

When I was five; I started jazz ballet, but that didn't last very long because they didn't put me with the rest of the five year old, they put me in with the seven and eight year old. And then would not be supportive when I couldn't keep up with the older girls. My mum tried to get them to put me in a class of girls my own age, but when they didn't, she took me out of it. I sometimes look back and wonder, is this when I started to think of myself as too big.

I remember when I was in year one at school, we had a sporting event. We had to run around the field a few times. I got a stitch and thought I was dying. The teacher told me to shake it off and keep going. I was fine; but after that moment I always avoided anything strenuous. This is when I started thinking I was not able to run.

Throughout my school years I would do as little physical activity as possible. At sport athletic carnivals, we had to do at least one running race. I would always choose the 400 meter race, because it was the shortest distance that you were not expected to sprint the whole way. I always came last and there were quite a few years where I faked illness to have that day off sick. I loved it when they allowed us to do walks instead of runs. I still came in last, but was less winded. This is when I realised I was never going to be able to run and would never be fit. This is also when I really started to gain weight. When I was no longer only tall, but also bigger.

Later in my childhood I did alright in swimming, but then my period started and I refused to use tampons; so that ended that activity. And I wasn't doing much. When I hit puberty, I fit the fat zone as well. By the time I finished high school I was obese. 

I can't give you numbers, because I didn't step on a scale until I was 26 in the year 2001 when I first suffered from gallstones. I went to the doctor's two weeks in a row because of the pain I was in and she noticed the second week that I had lost weight and so she got me on the scale. It said 125.6kg That was not a happy day, especially as I had lost a bit in that one week as I could barely keep anything down.

So with my whole life avoiding any form of physical activity; and this doesn't cover the food either.

Its not like I was fed nothing but junk when I was a kid, we always ate healthy foods, once a week we got take away. Rarely were we given lollies to eat. Special occasions only, that was the general rule and for no other reason than my mum didn't eat the stuff. But as I got older I would look for these special occasions more and more often, and when they came I would eat more and more of the 'treats'; no matter what it was. Things only got worse when I got my first job. I had my own money and could buy treats whenever I wanted them.

From that point on every day was a treat day, and I have been dealing with this problem ever since.

I wish I knew what could have been done differently to make me turn out differently. Oh well, too late now. I am who I am, and I still have a long way to go :-)

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Water Water Everywhere

What can I say, it rained all Friday, Saturday, Sunday and most of Monday. Flooding has occurred all over Brisbane and there is even rumours going around that if it starts back up again we could even see flooding similar to that of the 1974 Brisbane Floods (see pics)

Brisbane Floods of 1974
A boat that escaped the dry dock it was in before the flood
Thankfully the rain seems to have ended for now as Tuesday and today has been mostly dry. Here are some pics from Monday of an area near me.

You are supposed to be able to drive under the train bridge

There is a road there, I promise :)
Fun times. But not for Blondie:-(

She wants you to throw the ball.
Please!!!!!!!!!!! Throw the ball
She really is missing being able to run around outside. To make matters worse, she had an accident last week at the beach. It ended up with her having surgery because she ran into a stick. This means that even if it was dry enough, she still wouldn't be able to run around. So it is probably a good thing the rain is about.

There really is a silver lining in everything if you look hard enough.

She was lucky she  was at the beach and was playing in the salt water as that initial cleansing helped a lot. She was with the woman who was looking after her when we went to the Gold Coast and she took really good care of Blondie. We didn't even know about it until we got home on Friday. And that was the best thing about it, because I love her dearly, but if we had known, we would not have gone and the rest of the week with Tori would not have been as fun and care free. Plus to be perfectly honest, Blondie is much better behaved for others than she is for me :-P

She is fine and healing well, she did have a drain in her side for a few days and she chewed on that a bit, but that was taken out on Saturday morning and since then she has been fine. She gets the stitches on Friday morning. I am probably one of the few people that doesn't have a problem with her dog and stitches. She has not got near them at all.

The first time she had stitches was when she was de-sexed, she licked and chewed on them and ended up pulling one or two of the stitches out, I think she hurt herself and has remembered ever since. Since then she stays right away from them. I will be just as happy as her when she is given a clean bill of health and is able to go running again.

Me, well I am doing okay, my food has deteriorated a bit this week, due mostly to the lack of structure last week and being tired. I have an appointment with my surgeon tomorrow and I don't think I will be getting another fill. My restriction has been really good, and as long as I stay away from the crap food I would be doing even better than I already am.

Thanks for reading. I have been a bit everywhere today, so now I am going to read some blogs, that always gets me on track :-)

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Picture Post from the Week

Well I am back from the Gold Coast :-)

Had a great time with the girls. And believe it or not; I have managed to not gain any weight while away!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can barely believe it, but I jumped on the scale when we got home this afternoon and it was the same as what it was on Sunday, I checked again this morning as the nightly scale test can differ so much from the morning one and the number stuck - Plus I just started TTOM so I am so amazed (i have included the accountability progress at the bottom of today's post)

So here are a few photo's from the last few days (don't have any yet from today as the battery in the camera died and I forgot the charger, so I used my phone today and have to work out how to get them off the phone)

First Up: Me & the girls with Bugs and Tweety

Self Portrait of me & Mum (I need to practice this)

The Girls

What poses they are :-)
Kim already has the Amy W Point down pat ;)
Getting them both to do the Amy W Point

Just hanging with Batman
Besties Forever

And the ones they don't want shared :P

Lovely :P
Still have today and tomorrow with the lovely girls so I will be able to catch up with everyone soon.

As promised here is my accountability for the last five days :-)
D - KFC: Popcorn chicken and a few of the chips
Exercise - Body Step Class in the morning
Cello - none

B - Inside from a Bacon & Egg McMuffin
L - Sushi (yummy kind)
D - Chicken and vege
S - Skinny Cappuccino
Exercise - None
Cello - 1/2 hour practice and then weekly lesson

B - Eggs
L - Sushi Roll (yucky one)
D - Mac Snack Wrap
S - Chocolates
Exercise - PT session
Cello - none

B - yogurt and banana
L - tuna / egg salad on crackers
D - Slice of Pizza Capers pizza & 2 mouthfuls of mushroom and chicken pasta
S - Chips, cookies and a few nuts
Exercise - Lots of walking around WB Movie World
Cello - none

B - Egg, bacon, sm sausage, tomato little bit of toast with lemon butter
L - Inside of a Margarita Calzone (only a little bit of the pizza base)
D - Left over piece of last night's pizza
S - Ice Cream Sundae
Exercise - Lots of walking from shopping allllll day :-)
Cello - none

B - Egg, bacon, sm sausage, tomato little bit of toast with lemon butter
L - 1 prawn, 1 calamari piece and a few chips
D - Meat Pie from the Famous Yatala Pies (Yummy)
Exercise - Bit of walking around Sea World (very wet and stormy so didn't do as much as the last two days)
Cello - none

Monday, October 4, 2010

Accountability and other stuff

I am sort in holiday mode this week.

Tori :-)

My niece Tori and her friend are up for the week and I will not get a real chance to get to the gym. Plus we are also going to the theme parks this week and will be spending a few days down at the Gold Coast to save on the long drives there and back.

The good news is I will be very active, the bad news is I will probably not be the most healthiest eating this week. Two sixteen year olds are not known for there healthy choices, but I will do my best to try to stay on track.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Sunday, October 3, 2010


That's 268.1 pounds!!
 I had to take a photo of the scale this morning, because it is such an event that I didn't quite believe it when I saw it the first time :-)

I have not been on the scale since my birthday. So I wasn't sure what I would see. So it may be a week later than what I was originally aiming for, but here it is 30 Kilos down.

And in light of this I though it was about time I posted some of the progress photos of me.

I have to say. The place I notice it the most in these photos is the butt and stomach on the side view.

So there you go. I don't know if I am ready for these photos, so I am just going to hit post before I chicken out :)

Saturday, October 2, 2010

The Yummy Cake from Hell....

Rhiannon's Cake
Look at this chocolate cake that one of the girl's at work made and brought in.

It's rich, layered and, yes; those are Lindt balls on top :-)

I only had a small piece, who could resist. And it was delicious. It didn't sit too well though. I only ate about half my lunch and last night I only ate dinner because I had just gone to the gym and knew I needed the protein and I did feel better when I had eaten.

The one good thing is now I know I can still enjoy these chocolaty indulgences, but only in small portions.

From Yesterday:
Exercise: 40 minutes cardio
Food: B - banana, skinny cap; L - grilled pumpkin salad D - chicken drumstick and vege, S - nuts and chocolate cake = Total Calories: 1270
Water: still not enough - but better than usual
Cello: practice