What can I say, I have been totally lacking in the motivation department lately.
I have no one to blame for this but myself. I am in control of what I put in my mouth, just as I am in control of what I do with my body.
These are two basic things that I think a lot of us have forgotten, or don't want to remember :o)
I know that personally these are things that I never thought about before I was starting to want to loss weight. I just ate, and I never exercised.
When I started to worry about my weight and decided to go on diets, I was very conscious that I was supposed to control what I put in my mouth and what I was doing with my body. It never really lasted a long time. I would soon fall off that wagon and conveniently forget that I am supposed to be in control of the things that went into my mouth and what I did with my body.
This is going to change!!!!
I know that I have said things like this before, but I mean it. I am so tired of making promises to myself and breaking them sooner than it takes to publish a post.
So no; I am not going to make these huge claims that I hope to achieve.
What I am going to do though is be honest with myself. I eat chocolate. Fine, but no longer will I eat bar after bar. No longer will I eat chocolate in secret (yes I still do this - even if it is a normal small portion) I am a chocolate lover, I am embracing this love.
Maybe if I have a healthy, open love affair with my chocolate; it won't be able to hold me hostage any more :o)
I am going to have a positive attitude and dare to succeed.
This is my weight loss journey and I need to be proud of the goals I have achieved and I need to be positive that I can continue with these achievements onto my ultimate goal.
The main reason for this change was that I had an appointment with my surgeon today, and even though I have the best restriction so far I am basically the same weight I was at my last appointment. During the last four weeks I had two pretty good weeks were I was losing and them I have had two weeks were I have either been sick with the flu or recovering from the flu. I have not been to the gym in nearly two weeks and for what ever reason; the flu doesn't squash my hunger. If anything, I get more hungry. And I tend to go from eating hearty hot soups and stews to eating lots of ice cream.
I do not know why, but when I am sick is the only real time that I crave ice cream. I can put it down to the fact that throat is sore and the ice cream feels soothing as it goes down, or I need calcium.
The real reason is probably because when I had my tonsils out at the age of five, it was the first time I was allowed ice cream when I hadn't finished my dinner. So I guess when I am sick with a sore throat I revert back to my five year old self and get to enjoy the sinful pleasure of eating a bowl of ice cream instead of a healthy dinner.
Our childhood memories can be very strong and detrimental to our journeys. I need to work on this.
So after all this rambling, I think the basic idea is that I do need to track my food. I do need to be honest with myself in regards to what I am eating and why I am eating it. And I do need to start exercising again. I may not yet be % over the flu, but I am well enough for a walk and gentle exercise. And who knows? I might even find that with the little bit of exercise I am really ready for more :o)
So there it is: Dare to Succeed
I will dare; will you?