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Saturday, February 26, 2011

BYOC time again!!!

From the lovely and wonderfully wacky Drazil :o)

1. Are you a heavy or light sleeper?
• I’m both in a weird way. I have a hard time getting to sleep as I heard everything, but once I get there, not a lot will wake me up.

2. If you were made into a professor for a day, what topic would you lecture on?
• I would love to lecture on COMMON SENSE. I mean really, where has this concept gone? I am getting really tired of being babied everywhere we go. The other day at work we have to sign a safety share to say that we would not override safety devices. Why you may ask? Because some moron turned off a safety device on a stationary train and then hurt himself when the train started to roll and he jumped off the moving train as it was about to hit another stationary train. Really; what was he thinking. Common sense obviously played no part in his thinking that day :o)

3. What’s a skill you’ve always wanted that you don’t currently have?
• The graceful art of intriguing small talk. I always feel awkward in crowds of people that I barely know, and I usually stay mute for most of the time. I am fine with people I do know, but put me in a place were I don’t really know anyone and BAM… Nothing comes out.

4. Have you ever been in a real cat fight?
• Nope, I avoid confrontation like there is no tomorrow. Se above answer, it is all related :o)

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.
• Blogland is goooood….I am feeling the blogging motivation again, as I have finally got my laptop back from the computer shop (mind you I think I need to take it back as there seems to be a setting wrong somewhere that I can’t find as I am having trouble with posting at the moment) Oh and the challenges that are going on at the moment :o) Pound for pound with Joia; Water challenge with Ms.M and also about to start the Spring challenge organised by Nikki. If these don’t work, nothing will :o)

• In real life – I am still feeling a little crap from the flu, it is starting to bug me really, a bit of a cough is all that is left and it is interfering with me getting back to the gym; plus I am working at the moment. Love the overtime rates; not so much that I am stuck answering calls for 7 & ½ hours both days. I can’t complain too much as it is quite enough for me to be doing this entry :o)

Have a great week-end.


Friday, February 25, 2011

Dare to Succeed :o)

What can I say, I have been totally lacking in the motivation department lately.

I have no one to blame for this but myself. I am in control of what I put in my mouth, just as I am in control of what I do with my body.

These are two basic things that I think a lot of us have forgotten, or don't want to remember :o)

I know that personally these are things that I never thought about before I was starting to want to loss weight. I just ate, and I never exercised.

When I started to worry about my weight and decided to go on diets, I was very conscious that I was supposed to control what I put in my mouth and what I was doing with my body. It never really lasted a long time. I would soon fall off that wagon and conveniently forget that I am supposed to be in control of the things that went into my mouth and what I did with my body.
This is going to change!!!!

I know that I have said things like this before, but I mean it. I am so tired of making promises to myself and breaking them sooner than it takes to publish a post.

So no; I am not going to make these huge claims that I hope to achieve.

What I am going to do though is be honest with myself. I eat chocolate. Fine, but no longer will I eat bar after bar. No longer will I eat chocolate in secret (yes I still do this - even if it is a normal small portion) I am a chocolate lover, I am embracing this love.

Maybe if I have a healthy, open love affair with my chocolate; it won't be able to hold me hostage any more :o)

I am going to have a positive attitude and dare to succeed.

This is my weight loss journey and I need to be proud of the goals I have achieved and I need to be positive that I can continue with these achievements onto my ultimate goal.

The main reason for this change was that I had an appointment with my surgeon today, and even though I have the best restriction so far I am basically the same weight I was at my last appointment. During the last four weeks I had two pretty good weeks were I was losing and them I have had two weeks were I have either been sick with the flu or recovering from the flu. I have not been to the gym in nearly two weeks and for what ever reason; the flu doesn't squash my hunger. If anything, I get more hungry. And I tend to go from eating hearty hot soups and stews to eating lots of ice cream.

I do not know why, but when I am sick is the only real time that I crave ice cream. I can put it down to the fact that throat is sore and the ice cream feels soothing as it goes down, or I need calcium.

The real reason is probably because when I had my tonsils out at the age of five, it was the first time I was allowed ice cream when I hadn't finished my dinner. So I guess when I am sick with a sore throat I revert back to my five year old self and get to enjoy the sinful pleasure of eating a bowl of ice cream instead of a healthy dinner.

Our childhood memories can be very strong and detrimental to our journeys. I need to work on this.

So after all this rambling, I think the basic idea is that I do need to track my food. I do need to be honest with myself in regards to what I am eating and why I am eating it. And I do need to start exercising again. I may not yet be % over the flu, but I am well enough for a walk and gentle exercise. And who knows? I might even find that with the little bit of exercise I am really ready for more :o)

So there it is: Dare to Succeed

I will dare; will you?

Monday, February 21, 2011

Dinner, the Synphony & a tired pooch :o)

First off, I want thank everyone for the well wishes. I am feeling better. Still not a 100%, but I am getting there. Why is that the flu just takes so much out of you? I want to get back to the gym, but am not sure how long I should wait. I am still really tired, so I don't think I am ready yet. I guess, I will just keep listening to my body to see when it is ready to get back into things.

Now for the dinner:

As I have mentioned before, a friend is doing a Margaret Fulton Challenge. Cooking her way through 100 recipes from Margaret Fulton's Very Special Cookbook.
Saturday night was menu number 10:

Tomato Soup
Veal Escalopes in Mustard Cream
Chocolate Eclairs

I have realised something after this fantastic dinner. The band works great when you go to a dinner party.

The meal happens over a couple of hours, you spend a lot of time talking and socialising and even though you are there for the food, the eating is not the sole reason for being there.

I was able to eat a normal serve of the entree and dessert and I did only have a small serve of the main - I wish I could have eaten more as the veal was soooo yummy and very melt in your mouth tender. And even though most people there knew about the band it wasn't very obvious and it didn't pose a single problem.

After my last fill I honestly thought I would have a problem at these dinners, as I have very good restriction and it doesn't take much to fill me at the moment. But the eating part of the night takes so long due to all the conversations that I am able to eat really slowly and really work the band.
This was what we went through on Saturday night. And before you say anything, there was eight of us at dinner. Saturday was also the first night were I was able to enjoy some alcohol and not have it stuff up the night of eating :o)

How you might be asking?

Well, it is really so simple that I can't believe I hadn't thought of it before. I didn't drink while I was eating, and I waited at least 30 minutes after I finished eating before I had anything else to drink.

I know.... who knew that following the bandster rules would stop you from spending half the night throwing up and feeling really uncomfortable :o) - and yes, I am being very sarcastic here :p

Now off to the symphony:
I am officially a symphony snobs :o) At least that is what J and I are calling ourselves.

We have subscribed to the QLD Symphony Orchestra and went to our first show yesterday. It was interesting to see that the average age was about 75 years old :p, but the music was great, we had pretty good seats.
The only downside was that I embarrassed myself completely be having a coughing fit, the last one I have had from the flu, it was probably the air conditioning. It was so bad I had to leave. The best bit about this bad situation; was that they have a viewing room at the theatre, It's a sound proof room were you can see and hear the concert, but no-one else can see or hear you. It was great as I was able to still enjoy the concert and still cough my lungs up :p
And to finish this long post, here is one tired pooch :
So tired she had to rest her head on the foot stool :o)
Happy Monday everyone. Have a great week :o)

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I hate being sick :(

Yes, I seem to have the flu :(

Why is it every time I start a running program I end up with the flu. The same thing happened a few years ago when I was really into the gym and getting fit. I started to try running and ended up with the flu.

I know it is just a coincident but I just hate not feeling 100%. The worst thing about it is that the flu hasn't even hit me full on yet. I have just had the last two days off work, and I am due to go back to work tomorrow, but I feel as though I could wake up any day and feel totally worse than I have the last two days. I have had the really sore throat were you don't know if you will be able to speak until you try. An ear ache and headache, and I have been really tired, but I sometimes feel like a fraud and think I could actually be at work. Maybe not for the whole day. But for short periods of the day.

I just have a hard time letting go. Too much of the responsibility gene in me. My work ethic is too highly tuned. I feel guilty whenever I can't be at work!!

I'll guess I'll have to see how I am tomorrow morning. If I still feel like crap in the morning, I will go back to the doctor, but if not, it will be back to work and we'll take it from there.

I will get to my running, just as soon as I can. As hard as it is, I know I have to wqait until I am healthy before continuing on it, otherwise I will just do myself some damage. But there is a real fine line between feeling better and not being quite ready. That is hard to judge. So when I do get back to the gym, I will have to take it easy to ensure I am back up to scratch.

I hope everyone else is feel fit and fine. Unfortunately, with the headache I have had, reading is not a fun exercise, so I am a little befind in reading & commenting on blogs.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Nails are long again....

I got my nails done this morning :o)
I did think long and hard before I got them done again this time. You see I used to always have my nails done like this. I may have been fat, but I had nice nails and I always thought it made my fingers look longer and not so fat. I don't know if that was true or not, because I was so photo phobic back then.

But when I started playing the cello, that meant the end of the long nails. No nails was more the case when playing the cello. Any length just got in the way so I was clipping them extra short at least twice a week.. But I am putting that on hold. And I finally worked out why.

I started loosing focus on learning the cello when I had the WLS. I put it down to a lot of different things over the last few months. I was exercising, I didn't want to do music exams, I needed a break.

But the bottom line is I really do best at something when I am only concentrating on one main thing at a time.

When I started the cello I even told my boss at work, that I was not looking a move in the office to another department as I wanted to concentrate on music. This worked too. I learnt the basics in very little time and was progressing really well.

Then I had the surgery. And all of a sudden, I was no longer concentrating on music. I was concentrating on losing weight.

The progression in music stalled, but I was losing weight, so I wasn't too worried. But then I starting thinking that I need to improve some more with the cello, and I tried spending more time on that. But that is when my weight started to stall. I stoped playing the cello with the thought that I was going to concentrate on the weightless stuff, but to be honest I was always worrying that I needed to get back to the cello, so it was not that successful a break.

It really was a vicious cycle.

So this morning I was talking to my mum about it. And I don't know if I was trying to talk myself out of cello, but I came to the realisation that I need to solely work on my weight at the moment, and not worry about everything else.

So hence the nails went back on. :o)

We'll see how this goes. It does mean that if my weight is still stalled, I will have nothing else to blame but myself. That is a scary thought, but it is also refreshing. Out side of work and bills and living my life I just have to work on my weight loss journey to deal with :p

Nothing to it... {can you hear the sarcasm in my typing}

Hope everyone is having a great week end. I am currently at work doing some overtime (need to get some spending money together for the France/England trip) so I should get back too it :o)

Thursday, February 10, 2011


First Up, I just want to say a huge thanks so much for all your comments on my last post. It gave me a real boost to see that I might have offered a solution for other people to drink more water!! I have taken you advice and printed the motto out. It's on the fridge, on my work computer and on my diary :o)

So, I want to complete the C25K running program this year. I want to be able to run.

Once I can, then I will decide if I like running and if I will continue it. But I want to get to the point were I can run for at least 30 minutes, before I make this decision.

I had a look at the c25k program and can tell immediately, that I am not ready for it yet, so I have made up my own pre-c25k program.

Basically I have started with:
Week One:  Walk 4:30 minutes; then jog 0:30 seconds and repeat this six times for a 30 minute session + cool down time.
Then I will move onto:
Week Two:  Walk 4:00 minutes; then jog 0:30 seconds and repeat seven times for a 31 minute session + cool down time.
After that the walking time will keep decreasing until I get to 2 minutes and then I will increase the jog time to 45 seconds and then a minute.

This should take me 8 - 9 weeks, but like the c25k program, if I feel that I need to repeat a week I will.

After this I should be ready to start the c25k running program as it starts with 1 minute runs and 90 seconds of walking.

Slow steps to get me were I want to go. That what this whole process is about. The slow steps :o)

P.S. Can you believe the BOOBS is going to happen one week before I fly off to Paris?!? Two weeks later and I probably could have added in a quick trip to the US from France or England :( I just know everyone will have an amazing time & I hope I will be able to get to a one of these gatherings one day.

Hey, how about if we plan a get together for all the English ladies out there. I will be in England in October (first two weeks I think) I would love to meet up with some lovely strangers :o)

Monday, February 7, 2011

Not Hungry - Thirsty

Firstly, can I just say that I can not believe I have ever had trouble drinking my daily water. As soon as I am consciously aware that I am required to drink 2 litres (64 ounces) a day, I have no problems with it.

It is only when I am not thinking about it that I can't do it.

Since the Sip & Gulp Challenge has started I have not had a single problem, yet on Tuesday 01 February, just before I knew about the challenge, I was barely drinking 1 litre (32 ounces)

When I stop and think about it I realise something very important:

When I am not thinking about the correct water intake – I am automatically assuming that I am hungry when in actual fact I am thirsty.

How did I loose sight of one of the biggest tools in losing weight?!?

I really want to give my self a slap across the head sometimes. It is not the first time I have “forgotten” simple rules that have detoured my journey. It really is like self sabotage and I have to wonder if that is the whole point. My brain will “forget” to drink water and so there fore I am hungry and must eat chocolate. Where is the logic with that?


This is a mantra that I learnt when I was trying the self hypnosis weight loss approach. And it did work, after a few days I was drinking a lot more than the daily recommended amount of 64 ounces. I guess I stopped using it because the rest of it wasn’t working for me, it didn’t matter that it worked for a lot of other people and that I wasn’t 110% committed to the program. I wasn’t losing weight, so the whole program was no good for me.

I need to repeat this mantra until I am insane.


Maybe then I will not forget that I need to drink 8 glasses of water each and every day, NO MATTER WHAT!!!!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

I really do hate computers at times :o)

My lap top is playing up and I'm on the home computer, but for some reason, I can't view my own blog....WTF?!?

I can view the dash board, and hopefully publish this post, but when I click on the 'view blog' button, a message telling me that it can't complete or is unable to view, or something like like, pops up and comes up with an error :o( I can view other blogs through the dash board, so at least I have been able to get a little reading done. It would not surprise me if it was just an upgrade that this computer needs is missing. I haven't had this one linked to the web for a while and there is always upgrades being doles out.

I am calling in the Super Geeks next week and they can sort all my computer problems out. I probably just need to upgrade my anti-virus program and upgrade all the programs on my computer.

We'll see, hopefully they won't charge an arm and a leg to fix the problem :p

I had lunch with the support group today - it was fun. It was the first one for the year and it was mostly the regulars. A lot of the time we'll have a few new people show up, who are thinking of getting or have already got the band and have just heard about the group. It is a very informal group. Just a bunch of bandsters getting together and catching up with each other. Its great to be able to have lunch with a bunch of people and not have to explain why such a large person is only eating a third of her lunch and getting the rest to take away.

It is amazing to see the different stages that a lot of people are at. I'll be the first to admit that it does surprise me that there are not more women there that are not at goal. Most of them have been banded for a while, and while a few have been at goal, none of the regulars are at the moment. A few of them have gotten to goal and then gotten sick and that set them back a fare way. While others seem to have not done all they could and have gone back to bad behaviour.

I sometimes wonder if it is the best environment to go into when I am still excited to be on the right track with my band. But I think I actually take heed of what they have done with the band, and it makes me want to succeed even more. I will keep monitoring my thinking when I have been with the group and if the resole does change I will stop going. I want the experience to help, not hinder!!!

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Saturday is here :o)

Can I just say, that I am so over the natural disasters!!!!

I feel terrible for everyone that has been affected. Whether it be people in Brisbane & Toowoomba with the floods, Cairns to Townsville with cyclone Yasi, or even all of the Americans affected by the massive snow storms!!! I turn on the news and there is some major disaster.

What is going on in the world.

It has gone crazy.

I know there have always been these natural disasters before, but I guess they just seem to be happening all at once and all the time.

Sad times through out the world and I do not like them. I miss the carefree summers and cosy winters.

Band wise, I think I have very good restriction, I will need to keep an eye on my portions and nutrients, as I can't eat much and if I try to I get stuck from too much food.
So the last fill has done wonders. If I can lay off the chocolate, my weight loss would be back in full swing, but I haven't quite kicked the habit yet. Working on it though. But it seems as soon as I get rid of any remaining chocolate, my system goes into shock and I find myself buying and eating more.

My plan of attack for next week is to take lunch every day and only take enough money to get my morning coffee. That way I will not have the cash on my to buy the junk. I seem to do better when I am at home, but get me to work and I just stress eat. And it is never any thing good for me.

That it for me today. I hope you are all doing well. I am reading, just don't seem to comment as much as I should.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

New Challenge for Water

Ms.M is hosting a challenge for those of us that are water challenged :o)

Yep, I jumped on it as fast as I could. I am new to the Fatscapades of Ms M, but do look forward to following her on her journey with this great tool :o)

So here I am challenging myself to drink 64oz (or 8 cups) of water every day!!