I have stopped looking in the mirror again!
I don't see myself anymore, I have started to just see the lips when I apply lipstick, the eyes when I apply eye make up and the clothes that need straightening. I have stopped seeing me.
This means a lot to me, it means that I am falling back into fat mode in my brain!
It means I have to move forward or else I will surely fail! I am really close to failure in my journey at the moment and if I don't take control of my life I can see myself regaining everything I have lost.
This isn't a pity party, it is my wake up call.
I am starting liquids for a few days tomorrow, starting the pouch test. I need to re-commit to myself and my band.
I know I am worth more than what I have been doing to myself lately and so the excuses and non action stop here.
I just want to put this out there so that you know that I am still here and trying to stop the crazy brain action that has been going on here lately. I need to be held accountable for what I am not doing on this journey, just as much as what I am doing for my journey :o)
Feel free to ignore my rambles at the moment.
The true test will be if I come back with advise that I have followed through..... Time will tell.
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