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Tuesday, February 5, 2013

What is Holding YOU back?

If you are not at goal and are having trouble getting there; do you know WHY?

I have been thinking about this a lot lately as I just can’t seem to break the cycle of starting strong with a simple exercise plan and eating plan that is not extreme; only to keep caving into to crappy food cravings half way through the first day – usually after I have exercised too!!

I think I have identified at least two reasons that could be holding me back…keep in mind I have no medical confirmations for any of this :P

Firstly; there is the loose skin factor!

I am petrified that I am going to end up with sags of loose skin on my arms, thighs, stomach and back!! This is something I have always worried about and I even asked the doctor prior to surgery about it, but to be honest, he just gave the standard line how about 50% do need it and that it is nothing to worry about at that early stage. It is probably the only thing about the whole pre surgery process that I wasn’t 100% happy with but as usual, I never complained about it at the time!!

I already can see it and it is only getting worse! I know I will not be able to afford the surgery necessary to fix it and it is already bothering me… so how do I deal with this issue? I eat!!!!

Secondly; fear of rejection…

I do not find myself attractive, so how is anyone else. So that I am not rejected, I have stayed completely away from relationships. So I have to wonder how I will actually go in a serious relationship, if it ever happens for me. I also wonder if I am just a boring human being, I mean I have the whinging down!
I saw this picture on Facebook the other week and I think it really started me thinking. What if I am boring personality? And then I think to myself, ‘just snap out of your self pity party darling!’

But the thoughts still linger… I know I should see a therapist, but I hate talking about this stuff! And the irony of that statement hasn’t escaped my notice :) Besides; with therapists, you have to locate one that you feel comfortable with and they are very expensive and I just don’t know if I can do it!

So there you go, two reasons on what I am sure is a much longer list of things holding me back!

What to do about is the real question and to be honest I really don't have a good answer.
But this thought does come to mind:
But other than that obviously defensive statement, I have nothing.

I saw this quote:
And I do know that this is one of my failures. So I really have to get back to the very basic beginning and relearn how to plan, because obviously, if I can't plan, all I will ever do is wish my life away, and to be honest with myself, I am tired of that, I want to start reaching my goals!

So I am off to learn how to plan properly and to put what I learn into ACTION :)