Honesty can be brutal, but it needs to be done!
My current weight is 133.5kg or 294.3lb
While this is still down 18.4kg from my highest weight it is UP over 20kg from my lowest!
There are extenuating circumstances that have caused some of this weight gain - over the last six months my thyroid was attacked by my immune system and only now is it back to regular working order with the assistance of medication.
But that is only a reason as to why I was continually tired, not an excuse to continuely eat during that time.
And the fact that I didn't get back to my surgeon for a fill after I went to China last October is another excuse that I can not use. I have had very little restriction, so of course I have been eating more!
That doesn't excuse the fact that I have been eating junk, that is no ether helped in my journey nor has it helped my state of mind during the past few months while I have been gaining this weight!
So not only have I been hiding from the fact that I was gaining weight but I was also hiding from the fact that my choices haven't been good for the most part. You know how a healthy diet generally goes on the 80/20 rule wher it is being good 80% of the time and relaxing on it for the other 20? Well for me it has been the other way around mostly only making good choices 20% of the time...
But while I am still a little tired, I have gotten to the stage were I can't let it affect me so much anymore! I went back to my surgeon, I have gotten a fill and I am already feeling the restriction is back! I stuck to soft food today and I will do so again tomorrow. Two reason; 1 is that I need to learn to cut my food portions down again as they were getting up to near normal sizes again before today and if I over eat with some food, it isn't as painful if it was hard protein, and 2 I have always tended to feel very tight straight after a fill and don't want to agrivate my stomach!
So I am getting my head back in the game and being honest with myself for once! I will keep you posted...
Ps I have missed blogging :/