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Monday, August 18, 2014

Once apon a time....

Once apon a time there was a girl who throught she understood what it meant to have weight loss surgery. She thought she was ready. She thought she had done all her research and knew what she was getting into. She thought she was ready to make the required changes needed in order to succeed in this life changing journey.

I was wrong!!!

Throughout my time so far with my band I have always thought the hardest part of the journey was when you don't have any restriction so you can eat more than you should.

Not so, the hardest part is when you have great restriction and yet you still don't loss weight! Not because there is something wrong with it, but because you make the wrong decisions on what to eat. To be honest that should say because "I" make the wrong decisions!

It is yet another Monday and once again I am trying to restart my action plan. The biggest problem I have at the moment is that exercise is starting to hurt again!

I had gotten to the point where I enjoyed exercise and loved the fact that I was getting stronger and leaner, but over the last six months, my brain has refused to push enough so that I actually get of the couch and the horrid rocking shuffle is returning to my walk!
I hate the way I am feeling, looking and thinking right now and I know that this is something I need to get past before I will be able to successfully get on with my weight loss journey. But finding a decent doctor to talk to is difficult! My regular GP left the surgery I was going to with little warning and her new practise in nowhere near me so I can't get to see her anymore and I am not impressed with the replacement do tors they have at the practice.

The worst thing about this is that I was just finishing sorting out the medical problems with her and we were then going to look into my head, when she moved!

So starting that all over again is just another pain I don't want to deal with.

I miss writting... I would get a lot of my thoughts out with paper and pen, but finding the time and privacy to do that is difficult. I used to do a lot of that at work, either in down time or during my breaks, however my office has gone paper free because we take credit card details over the phone. While I completely understand the reasoning behind it, I hate, hate, hate the fact that I can no longer doodle at my desk. If the computer is taking 10 minutes to process, I just have to sit there and wait!

Because we are no longer to eat at our desk the staff room is always busy, so there is no ME TIME anymore there! And trying to do something privately in the staff room is impossible. So that is a major stress release that is no longer available to me!

So all this babbling has got me to the point of where I am now:
My plan?
Yep, don't even know when it will be, I just know that I will be doing it and to get through it I will have to toughen up and get to the gym!

My name is Sam and yes I am insane :p


  1. Yes! I feel like I'm in the exact same boat. I have backslid (slided?) so badly. It's time to make the change stick. I'm back. Are you?

  2. I'm having the same issues with exercise!!!

  3. Sending you so many hugs and much love - you know I am in EXACTLY the same boat. One day at a time, that's all we have.

  4. i am Kristin and i am insane too. i feel your pain. let's get down there again!