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Thursday, March 27, 2014

Learning Process

It seems that I have to learn my band all over again!

Having had little to no restriction for so long, relearning the small portions and what doesn't work is kind of weird! Weird that I have to learn it again, because it seems as though I should never forget that lesson.

It should be second nature by now, but it isn't. I have been ignoring the fact that I have a band for the last six months, hence why I am where I am!

To make matters even more interesting I am actually on holidays at the moment and as I type and travelling through the night on The Ghan. An iconic train trip from Darwin to Adelaide over three days.

Only problem is the very limited internet access while travelling. I only get bars on both my phone and iPad when we stop in a town. Next stop is Alice Springs at 9am!

So far on this trip I have embraced the small bits and slowly eating meals and leaving plenty on my plate. It is good to have the yummy meals still, and know that they are not going to completely unravel me as I can only eat a small part of them. And I have followed the golden rule of protein first!

So here it is, just a quick update to say I am still here and still working my band the way I should! With it, and not trying to get around it :)

 

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Honesty

Honesty can be brutal, but it needs to be done!

My current weight is 133.5kg or 294.3lb

While this is still down 18.4kg from my highest weight it is UP over 20kg from my lowest!

There are extenuating circumstances that have caused some of this weight gain - over the last six months my thyroid was attacked by my immune system and only now is it back to regular working order with the assistance of medication.

But that is only a reason as to why I was continually tired, not an excuse to continuely eat during that time.

And the fact that I didn't get back to my surgeon for a fill after I went to China last October is another excuse that I can not use. I have had very little restriction, so of course I have been eating more!

That doesn't excuse the fact that I have been eating junk, that is no ether helped in my journey nor has it helped my state of mind during the past few months while I have been gaining this weight!

So not only have I been hiding from the fact that I was gaining weight but I was also hiding from the fact that my choices haven't been good for the most part. You know how a healthy diet generally goes on the 80/20 rule wher it is being good 80% of the time and relaxing on it for the other 20? Well for me it has been the other way around mostly only making good choices 20% of the time...

But while I am still a little tired, I have gotten to the stage were I can't let it affect me so much anymore! I went back to my surgeon, I have gotten a fill and I am already feeling the restriction is back! I stuck to soft food today and I will do so again tomorrow. Two reason; 1 is that I need to learn to cut my food portions down again as they were getting up to near normal sizes again before today and if I over eat with some food, it isn't as painful if it was hard protein, and 2 I have always tended to feel very tight straight after a fill and don't want to agrivate my stomach!

So I am getting my head back in the game and being honest with myself for once! I will keep you posted...

Ps I have missed blogging :/