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Monday, August 25, 2014

Persistence

Persistence is the key to any successful journey and is something I am lacking in!

Trying to get it takes time, and through that time it can be hard to see the results, which altimately stops me! Times are tough when the one thing you need to do to get to the goal is the one thing you lack!

So I need to stop looking so far ahead!

I can not focus on the fact that I have 50+kilograms (110 + pounds) to lose!

I have to focus on 5 kilograms - I need to get rid of 5 kilograms (11 pounds)!

Small attainable goals, that are within reach!

Now is May seem like simple stuff, but for what ever reasons, I have lost this insight over time and am now just rediscovering it!

Same goes for jumping in and signing up for next year's ToughMudder! That seems like an unabtainable goal at this point, but I can't focus directly on that yet. So I have a Holt Bolt obsticale course race in five weeks:
The Holt Bolt is a 5-6 km event and while it is hard, it is not the 20km event that ToughMudder is, so a great starting point!

I went to the gym this morning and it went well! I have a plan in place for the whole week:

Monday - 20 min cardio & upper body strength
Tuesday - 20 min cardio & lower body strength
Wednesday - 50-60 min cardio
Thursday - rest
Friday - 20 min cardio & upper body strength
Saturday - 20 min cardio & lower body strength
Sunday - active rest (scheduled hike with a friend)

Now I know it is full on, but I am taking it easy, and I know me!! If I don't go all the time, I don't go at all!

I have put Thursday as a rest day, because if I'm going to have a late night it is usually Wednesday night, as a friend and I usually go to Trivia that night after work :)

Persistence is key, and I have to take it one day at a time to get to my goal of being persistant and achieving my small, measurable & achievable weightloss goals!

Monday, August 18, 2014

Once apon a time....

Once apon a time there was a girl who throught she understood what it meant to have weight loss surgery. She thought she was ready. She thought she had done all her research and knew what she was getting into. She thought she was ready to make the required changes needed in order to succeed in this life changing journey.

I was wrong!!!

Throughout my time so far with my band I have always thought the hardest part of the journey was when you don't have any restriction so you can eat more than you should.

Not so, the hardest part is when you have great restriction and yet you still don't loss weight! Not because there is something wrong with it, but because you make the wrong decisions on what to eat. To be honest that should say because "I" make the wrong decisions!

It is yet another Monday and once again I am trying to restart my action plan. The biggest problem I have at the moment is that exercise is starting to hurt again!

I had gotten to the point where I enjoyed exercise and loved the fact that I was getting stronger and leaner, but over the last six months, my brain has refused to push enough so that I actually get of the couch and the horrid rocking shuffle is returning to my walk!
I hate the way I am feeling, looking and thinking right now and I know that this is something I need to get past before I will be able to successfully get on with my weight loss journey. But finding a decent doctor to talk to is difficult! My regular GP left the surgery I was going to with little warning and her new practise in nowhere near me so I can't get to see her anymore and I am not impressed with the replacement do tors they have at the practice.

The worst thing about this is that I was just finishing sorting out the medical problems with her and we were then going to look into my head, when she moved!

So starting that all over again is just another pain I don't want to deal with.

I miss writting... I would get a lot of my thoughts out with paper and pen, but finding the time and privacy to do that is difficult. I used to do a lot of that at work, either in down time or during my breaks, however my office has gone paper free because we take credit card details over the phone. While I completely understand the reasoning behind it, I hate, hate, hate the fact that I can no longer doodle at my desk. If the computer is taking 10 minutes to process, I just have to sit there and wait!

Because we are no longer to eat at our desk the staff room is always busy, so there is no ME TIME anymore there! And trying to do something privately in the staff room is impossible. So that is a major stress release that is no longer available to me!

So all this babbling has got me to the point of where I am now:
My plan?
Yep, don't even know when it will be, I just know that I will be doing it and to get through it I will have to toughen up and get to the gym!

My name is Sam and yes I am insane :p